I am ever and always becoming.
I may reach a plateau and coast for awhile, but apparently this is just the universe’s way of giving me a little breather. Then, the next lesson starts.
Except it’s not a new lesson, even though it feels fresh every time it starts. No, it is the same lesson I keep having to learn over and over again. The universe is absolutely persistent that I get this, once and for all, exactly right. It must be a pretty important lesson, eh?
And, why, pray tell, am I so resistant to it? Why do I flunk over and over again? And why does the universe not just kick me out of school?
The thing is, I actually know the answers to most of my own questions about this now. So apparently I have actually made progress in the curriculum. Maybe I’m not actually flunking anymore, I’m just getting C’s.
Why not finally go for it? Why not do all the homework and try for an A? Be an honor student? Be ready to graduate?
Yikes, what happens then?
Well, no fear, because if there’s one thing I’ve learned – the universe does have my back. And it’s all – every single bit of it – about love. I can trust that.
I am safe, if challenged, in the loving arms of the universe that is the absolute champion of critical thinking, innovation, embracing the arts, practical experience, fearless exploration, and radical education reform.
Confidence. I am good enough. I am smart enough. I can stop judging myself. I can do this without thinking. All I have to do is bring all of me to the party.
Okay. Pencils are sharpened. New notebooks in the backpack. No need for new text books, hehe, I’ve got them all.
Here we go again.
2 thoughts on “lessons”
“All I have to do is bring all of me to the party.”
I like that.
Of course we must train, prepare, study…but none of that will be enough unless we are in it, at that moment, wholly.
I think I’ll be using this line as a mantra.
Thanks! I have to keep reminding myself! 🙂